It started with the stupid tagging game. Take a look at number 10 that I wrote oh-so-proudly.
I stop using other's parameter for judging my life and feel happy ever sinceNow, just leave it like that.
Earlier this week, a good friend of mine announced that he's married. And I was, you know, kind of upset. Or very upset. I don't know.
It's not that he's my ex or I had feeling for him or anything. Nothing like that. And he told me that he was getting married, so it shouldn't be a big surprise.
Then it hits me. I was jealous that he's married. And I'm not. While I probably should. Or expected to. Whatever.
But what about the stop-using-other's-parameter-blah?
Maybe I didn't really mean that. I just wrote that because it sounds brave. Or as Rangga told Cinta, prinsipil.
Or maybe even worse. Maybe I thought that my life was better than him. I thought he messed up, so I can't accept when he's married. And I'm not.
The second hit. Maybe I don't stop using other's parameter to judge my life. Maybe I just look upon those whose life (I thought) is messier than me, so I can feel happy about myself.
At that point I was a jealous unmarried girl who felt bad about herself and her feeling toward her friends.
But then, Heidy replied to the useless prinsipil.
t'Rani.... itu kata-kata terngiang-ngiang2 terus dlm kepalaku...huks...so inspiring ^_^From all the stupid things that I wrote, from all my friends who can reply, she replied that.
And I started to laugh. At myself. GOD IS THE BEST COMEDY WRITER!
Fabiayyi alaa'i rabbikumaa tukaddzibaan-You read this, right? Do forgive me for I don't know what. I am sincerely happy for you and wishing you all the best, for now and always. Can you consider this as a gift, so I don't have to prepare angpao? I will miss the makan-makan anyway :D
Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?